haunted ;
man. j2 prelims r in 20 days.. i realli dunno wad i can do. sec 4 prelims coming up too. woh. i realli gotta think of sth quick. n catch up with my sec 4 work too.
wushu. lion dance. i realli dunno wad to say. everything's just falling apart. sometimes i feel tt im standing alone. like contact the club abt stuff i'll b the one doing all of it. n today i went into the lion dance room. it was in a total mess. the seniors were in there on sat cos they were gonna perform. n man i was so disappointed la. bottles were thrown around everywhere.. plastic wrappers of their chicken floss buns from sat were left lying around on the floor.. lion heads werent kept.. n all the furniture were out of place.
me n cheryl spent 5 min b4 chem spa trial clearing the rubbish. appreciate her help. she was rather shocked to see wad lion dance ppl wld do. hai. yupp n i spent 1 hour aft sch tidying up the place alone =( actualli it was kinda fun la. itz nice tt lion dance room n ops room r together. get to hang around wif councillors. chengxun n weiming climbed over.. n uh they were sitting around.. commenting on how the lion dance pres looks like a cleaner as well. uhhuh thanks. haha. but weiming totalli freaked me out la. he told me got once he climbed over to play wif the drums.. n aft tt there was this loud long sigh. he said the long sigh is common. he heard it a lot of times. but tt particular time it was damn loud. n he scrambled back over immediately n went out. woh.
den ziliang came over too n started telling me abt all those stuff too. arghh n aft they all went for their council meeting. i din stay for long too cos i was realli freaked out. rarrr y did they hafta tell me!! haha. but anw thanks to ziliang for helping me clear up some stuff too.
hai so itz like. realli bad la. we hafta take part in lion dance nats next yr.. n we haf like wad. 3 guys n 6 girls. arghhh. n training progress sux totalli. ppl haf sucky attitudes. damn.
n wushu. still kinda disturbed by wad someone told me today. she told me shes not going for trng this wk bcos shes gonna celebrate her fren's birthday. i mean ok.. tt's a reason. but im rather pissed off tt ppl think tt they can just come n go as they wish. n summore shes in the exco la. rarr. nvm i'll talk to her nicely =) so yeah itz like wushu isnt heading anywhere either. the attitude isnt there. the outlook isnt there. comp next year also. promos coming up which means VERY little training. come on la itz once a wk onli. we haf so much other stuff in sch. n when we dont, some ppl just still dun bother to turn up.
n we onli haf less than a year together as a team. wait. r we even a team?
hai.
so tts y im gonna talk to koksiang.. hopefully tmr.. n maybe the teachers as well. all these crap gotta change for the better. n i can do this. yupp.
i just thot of some stupid stuff i wrote in my scholars' portfolio ytd nite. spent so many hours doing a 5-page reflection on the student leaders' camp.. n did the goals stuff too. omg i realli wrote crap la. got long term goal.. academic goals.. personal growth/development.. n leadership development. for leadership development.. i sitll rmb wad i wrote. umm the sentence already started off wif "i want to". haha. so haiya heck la i wrote "serve with humility and lead with an impact." i thought it was dumb. but now i think itz rather interesting.
rarr realli gotta tackle n resolve those probs. so ive been thinking of ways to umm try n resolve them. dunno la will talk tmr n see how haha. den i will talk to the club. yupp. n i realised theres no way tt i can stand alone lo. no matter how much i do or wad. yeah. i realli need support from the club.. esp from my exco.. which is er.. rather non-existent. theres lots of talking n thinking to do.. so i'll leave it to tmr.
because im off to do other things now. yupp. n im gonna donate blood tmr. so im not gonna think too much. just in case i get a heart attack.
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